stressahol
Jul. 9th, 2009 11:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
holeinthegroundwhen i am rich one of the first things i'm doing is hiring a personal assistant. i'm starting to get super stressed, and this feeling that there is about a million things i need to do, but not really sure what exactly they are.
part of my problem, and a similarity that i've noticed between my film making and my political activity, is that i tend to take things on all by myself. this is a serious issue, because part of being a good director is delegating tasks. however, part of my problem is that i have issues trusting people. i KNOW that i can do these things and do a good job, but i'm not sure i can just trust to leave it all to someone else. something to work on for sure. but, there isn't really anyone i completely trust to be able to take care of this shit for me without me constantly getting reassurance that it's getting done.
so, yea, i'm gonna be excited to get out of town this weekend, but also nervous about it, because i feel kind of guilty that i should be constantly working on things. but... i also am not quite sure what exactly needs to be worked on.
i need to make a list or something.
part of that... is personal shit i need to get done...
1) i did get a dog sitter for this weekend, which is cool (unless something changes soon, but i doubt it will. plus nick is hella trustworthy)
2) i need to get my xbox, my bathroom supplies, and some other personal items from home and transfer them to my parents' place. i sort of wish my parents' vacations didn't coincide with my filming.
3) i'll need to buy groceries. i think i'll hold off until i get back from Madison to go all out, since i don't want shit to go bad while i'm away.
4) shower, brush my teeth, eat. i need to write this down so i don't forget before work.
5) pack for Madison.
finally, one advantage of being at my parents' house is they have a sweet deck now, and i get internet out here, so, i am sitting on my laptop OUTSIDE!!! drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes and using the internet. it's pretty sweet.
as much as i feel guilty and nervous about going away this weekend, i also realize that i probably REALLY REALY REALLY need this and need a break for a couple of days.
then... shooting next week. i'm at the point where i'm not sleeping very much. i'll probably get sick after the end of the month. after shooting... i'm going to be spending as many hours as possible in the editing rooms at school.
i really fucking hope this turns out well. holy shit.
part of my problem, and a similarity that i've noticed between my film making and my political activity, is that i tend to take things on all by myself. this is a serious issue, because part of being a good director is delegating tasks. however, part of my problem is that i have issues trusting people. i KNOW that i can do these things and do a good job, but i'm not sure i can just trust to leave it all to someone else. something to work on for sure. but, there isn't really anyone i completely trust to be able to take care of this shit for me without me constantly getting reassurance that it's getting done.
so, yea, i'm gonna be excited to get out of town this weekend, but also nervous about it, because i feel kind of guilty that i should be constantly working on things. but... i also am not quite sure what exactly needs to be worked on.
i need to make a list or something.
part of that... is personal shit i need to get done...
1) i did get a dog sitter for this weekend, which is cool (unless something changes soon, but i doubt it will. plus nick is hella trustworthy)
2) i need to get my xbox, my bathroom supplies, and some other personal items from home and transfer them to my parents' place. i sort of wish my parents' vacations didn't coincide with my filming.
3) i'll need to buy groceries. i think i'll hold off until i get back from Madison to go all out, since i don't want shit to go bad while i'm away.
4) shower, brush my teeth, eat. i need to write this down so i don't forget before work.
5) pack for Madison.
finally, one advantage of being at my parents' house is they have a sweet deck now, and i get internet out here, so, i am sitting on my laptop OUTSIDE!!! drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes and using the internet. it's pretty sweet.
as much as i feel guilty and nervous about going away this weekend, i also realize that i probably REALLY REALY REALLY need this and need a break for a couple of days.
then... shooting next week. i'm at the point where i'm not sleeping very much. i'll probably get sick after the end of the month. after shooting... i'm going to be spending as many hours as possible in the editing rooms at school.
i really fucking hope this turns out well. holy shit.
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Date: 2009-07-09 10:31 pm (UTC)But yeah, making lists is awesome.