directing journal 5
Oct. 2nd, 2009 11:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
holeinthegroundshooting tomorrow. mom's house is basically prepared. the back room of the bar is pretty much cleared out for sunday.
supposed to be there at 7:30am. it's 11:36pm and i'm not really all that tired yet... so... beer? (yes please).
day 2 of not smoking. i'm starting to feel more like myself again. except that i don't feel obligated to smoke. (i do have nicotine withdrawal pangs, but i still don't feel obligated to smoke, the discomfort from withdrawal seems surprisingly manageable today). day 1 of not smoking kind of sucked, i'm not even fully clear on what happened that day. i did everything i was supposed to do, plus some other things, but spent the day in a haze of sorts. today was much better, things were clear, i knew what was going on, just felt like the feeling of not having a cigarette for a long time. day 3 should be much better, as seems to be the trend. still absentmindedly reaching into the pocket where i used to keep packs and a lighter, it's kind of weird having that pocket empty.
it'll be nice not to have to constantly be interrupting the shoot for me to have cigarette breaks. also, nice to be able to concentrate more, and not have "when can i get outside in the cold to have another smoke?" constantly running in the back of my head when i should be focusing on whatever it is that i'm doing (directing, ADing, even production managering.)
it should be fun. tomorrow will be fun for sure. tiring, but fun.
sunday, will be a little more nerve wracking, but... still fun.
supposed to be there at 7:30am. it's 11:36pm and i'm not really all that tired yet... so... beer? (yes please).
day 2 of not smoking. i'm starting to feel more like myself again. except that i don't feel obligated to smoke. (i do have nicotine withdrawal pangs, but i still don't feel obligated to smoke, the discomfort from withdrawal seems surprisingly manageable today). day 1 of not smoking kind of sucked, i'm not even fully clear on what happened that day. i did everything i was supposed to do, plus some other things, but spent the day in a haze of sorts. today was much better, things were clear, i knew what was going on, just felt like the feeling of not having a cigarette for a long time. day 3 should be much better, as seems to be the trend. still absentmindedly reaching into the pocket where i used to keep packs and a lighter, it's kind of weird having that pocket empty.
it'll be nice not to have to constantly be interrupting the shoot for me to have cigarette breaks. also, nice to be able to concentrate more, and not have "when can i get outside in the cold to have another smoke?" constantly running in the back of my head when i should be focusing on whatever it is that i'm doing (directing, ADing, even production managering.)
it should be fun. tomorrow will be fun for sure. tiring, but fun.
sunday, will be a little more nerve wracking, but... still fun.
